Ryan's Room

[Ryan]

My title is the most creative thing you've seen right! ..right?

Anyway the game's started and I already feel out of my element. I know what needs to be done and it seems like these initial days are all about socializing and getting to know everyone. I've had my fair share of chats with everyone and I've started to form opinions of the other houseguests. My partner Danielle is chill and I'm here for getting #Rynelle as far as I can! We do seem to miss eachother more than often but we leave offlines and play tag. My only concern with her as my partner is I don't know if she's being social with the others like I hope she is. This isn't an entirely individual game and what your partner says or does can effect how you do! Aside from Danni I like some and am indifferent about others. There's nobody I dislike but there are some I'm having trouble communicating with due to a lack of interest.




Donny is one of the people I'm referring to when I say there are people I'm having trouble communicating with. He and I have had two conversations which is more than I can say with others but each time they were short lived and they consisted of the same thing. Donny's tired and all he wants to do is relax. I get you man. I feel you. But saying the same thing over and over isn't helping anything! I haven't spoken to Jerry so if I were to ever be in a position to vote out a player between these two I'd be evicting Jerry since we haven't spoken.




If any duo sticks out above the rest it's this one. These two are social all stars. I've spoken to them almost every day since the game has started and they can hold a conversation. Them being on the same team means that they're bound to be safe throughout the twist because I can't see them going up. I don't think I'd even put them up. Some of my best conversations come from these two. Heather's a babe and Caleb's a cool guy. I almost wish they won HOH because they'd be getting their hands dirty and have to show some cards.




I thought Jessie was going to be a dick munch. Turns out he's not that bad of a guy. We've had some good conversations. We took this introduction stage seriously and got to know one another on a personal level. He told me about where he's from and how he's away from his parents. It feels nice when someone opens up to you like that. I feel close to Jessie and I wouldn't want to see him go anywhere anytime soon. Chelsia on the other hand is the most inactive player? I've had players like Caleb talk to me and tell me they think Chelsia is a waste of a casting spot and I think if this pair went up we could see Chelsia leave without any question. I wouldn't be upset if she left.




Leeeeoooooooo! My m8! He's MASSIV! We sound stupid af trying to use Aussie terms when we talk to eachother but it's a barrel of laughs. Leo is the one I get along with the most. I don't feel like there is any hidden agenda when I talk to him and it's all honest conversation. Nicole is his partner and she's as sweet as can be. We're both procrastinators when it comes to school and we can relate to being lazy with assignments and deadlines. I can't see myself putting this pair up if I were to ever win HOH either. I like both and want to keep working at my relationship with them so it can grow even stronger.




I had a good chat a day ago with Matt but I have one complaint about him. You send something and he takes about 6 to 10 minutes to respond after everything you say. I timed him with my phone at one point too..  . Other than that he's not bad and someone I'll keep trying to talk to. Victoria is funny. She's very in character. She'll talk as if she's really Victoria, mentioning how she cut up Zach's hat and how she was the queen of being UTR in "her" season. It was a different style from what everyone else but I adapted and played along with her. She's funny though and I think I left an okay impression on her?




The POP! Pair in power! Monika is such a flirt. Good thing I can be one too. It's easy to tell that English is not Monika's first language but you have to give her a clap for doing as well as she's doing. She told me how her character was a big flirt and had guys all over the house and then proceeded to flirt with me and say how attractive Ryan was. I'm not against throwing out compliments and employing shameless flirting to save myself either. We mentioned being a secret duo so maybe that'll keep me safe on her end of nominations? Luisa is someone I struggle getting a read on. I can't tell if she likes me or not. We talk about work and she tells me how she's the queen. Foreign power and  ! I like her but she's one of those people who have a rough exterior. I need to find my way to that soft, gushy center. That sounded gross..




This might be the pair I nominate for eviction if I ever win . Out of all the pairs this is the only one where I'm not social with at least one member. Jessica and I exchanged pleasantries but that was the end of it. I have never seen Nathan on.. I don't know if it's me and not being on when he is or what but I haven't seen the guy. I see him on the board all the time so I might need to send him a message on the forum to say hey. I don't want to leave any stone unturned because you never know what could happen. Especially here!

Who knew we were all going to be split into pairs? Not this guy!

[Ryan]

Winning the POV was a big WTF moment for me! I didn't think Danni or I would win because during the competition my FF froze and I had the spinning wheel for a good 4 minutes before it undid itself. Then when I got it fixed I had trouble with the maze because I had to resize my pieces to fit Danielle's. My screen resolution was bigger than hers so it made my puzzle squares larger. The maze itself wasn't difficult for me which was the part I think that gave us the edge. I've always been a puzzle guy in my normal life and doing that in the game was a nice way to start things out. I went to bed later in the night expecting to lose because of the problems before that but when I got up and got messages from people saying congrats.. it was bewildering to me!



Don't get me wrong! I am happy to win because without angering anyone (like if we were HOH) Danni and I secured safety for ourselves. I don't know how safe we would have been if Donry or Jessia came down. I spoke a lot with Monika the day of nominations and I spoke to Luisa too. Prior to that day we didn't talk a lot so we could have been an option. Danielle mentioned talking a lot with Luisa but never to Monika so I'm glad I put in some work with Monika or we could have been her pairing to go up. When we won we knew we didn't want stir up any trouble and leaving nominations was the safer play for us. It's hard playing in pairs because deeper we get the more vulnerable we get since 2 people are leaving each time we have an eviction.

Chelsia seemed like the easy first boot for everyone before Monisa won HOH. Everyone noticed that she was not on a lot and she would go up. Poor Jessie. I like him and I know he's had it rough but the good news is I can't see him going and he'll get a new partner out of the twist. Donry is another story.. both of them are active. I made a mistake and only added the beginning of Jerry's screen name and not the @outlook.com part and I never got to talk to him until a couple days ago. Is it fair to want to vote him out because I've spoken to him less even though it was half my fault? I don't know cause he could have messaged me too and I would have realized the error sooner.

I had a weird chat with Matt yesterday where he suggested keeping Chelsia and evicting Jessie. If he's wanting to evict someone who tried to stay and has been on and talking over someone who hasn't done any of the above then you got to question how Matt is playing the game. He's going to be one of those cut throat players that goes for the "threats" early even if it means keeping people who do nothing and say zilch. He said he's never spoken to Jessie and only talked to Chelsia and I guess it's fair to keep Chelsia if that's the truth.. but him coming to me and sharing this makes me think he said it to others in an attempt to get Jessie out and get his way. I don't think Matt could be someone I trust in the game or work with because I don't agree with this kind of approach. I want to play with people who care to be here.

As for my approach I'm trying not to overplay or look like someone that has his hand in too many cookie jars. I'm talking to people now and again and slowly but surely establishing relationships. Part of me wants to win HOH and the other part of me doesn't want to. Winning HOH means Danielle and I can make some deals and earn trust and safety for the future but it also means making enemies and having 2 people wanting to come after you. I want to talk to Danielle and see what she wants to do and if she wants to win it then I'll play hard with her and we'll try and bring it home!

[Ryan]

The plan of attack is to win win win but I don't know what the heck I'll do. In all the duos there is one person I like and one person I don't have a good connection with. In Donsie I like Jessie the best. He's chill and I have a good connection with him. He's open about his life and it feels like I'm taking to an actual human being rather than someone in a game trying to win. In Healeb I don't know who I like more. Caleb and I have good chats but so do Heather and I. The bad thing about Heather is every time I message her she's at work or she's busy and we aren't able to have a long conversation like some of the others we've had. I also don't know if I could ever trust in them as much as I would like to. Them hinting at or telling Donny and Jerry last round they wanted to keep one over the other left a bad taste in my mouth. I wouldn't want to get my hopes up over staying just to be kicked out the front door on my ass. I have the feels for Jerry.

In Leole it's all about my m8 Leo. I want to talk to him tonight and see what's up with him and maybe make something official. I don't want to overplay or overdo anything but I also don't want to be left with nothing. It doesn't need to be a duo+duo alliance but I want to at least establish that he and I will look out for the other. Nicole's nice but we don't talk nearly as much. I should get on that tonight when I talk to Leo. In Matoria I like Victoria more. Matt's vote criteria last round had me do a double take. I think he's a big time player that won't have any problem cutting more deserving players over players like Chelsia who didn't want to be here. I don't want to be in a spot where he can do that to me and the sooner he is gone the better. The last time I talked about Nathica I said that they'd be my nomination but I don't know anymore. Nathan Strudel is a cool guy. For those that don't know.. my phone thought Nathan was a delicious pastry and autocorrected him as NathanStrudel on my list and that's why I never got a chance to talk to him lmfao. My phone was hungry, what can I say?

So there you have it. I don't know who I would put up. I could just do Monisa since I don't care for them but I have that "deal" with Monika that we'd be a secret pair. I don't know if that was even real but I feel bad considering breaking it. Tbqh I couldn't see past all the shameless flirting and her trying to get into my pants. I guess if we win then Danielle and I will decide our nominations together. You'd think it'd be easier to just lose HOH and just hope and pray that we don't get nominated but I don't want to leave it up to that either. If we do win then we at least have an opportunity to cut a deal with someone and buy some time. That's a good thing too since nobody knows how long this twist is going to last?

[Ryan]

That awkward moment when you're not paying attention and forget who you're talking to. Leo was leaving for the night and I said bye and sent him a heart.  I don't know where my mind was but the silence after was hilarious af. HE'S GOT TO KNOW IT'S BECAUSE WE'RE M8S. Bromance in full bloom. But uh yeah. I told him to bag some chicks at the club and tell me all about it. That should cover up the embarrassment right? ..right? I hope he doesn't think I'm a loon.

Leo: kk i'm about to hit the club scene
Leo: ill see ya around
Ryan: take it easy
Ryan: <3
Ryan: i mean have fun
Ryan: kill it
Ryan: bag chicks
Ryan: tell me all about it
Ryan: i posted a heart and idk why but bromance clearly so
Ryan: yw

[Ryan]

Rewind to almost 24 hours ago to when Danni and I were talking about how weird it was that nobody was talking alliances and how we didn't have anything going for us. It felt like we got shut out of the game and were left out in the cold to wither and die. BUT NO MORE! We have a little plan cooking up in the kitchen that should help us. It's a golden egg that has landed in our laps and we're not about to let it get away. The plan involves us aligning with Nathica and Matoria and taking control of the game. I am ready to go with these guys but I have some reservations. My first is that I don't trust Matt. Not after he tried to keep Chelsia in the game over Jessie. But for the sake of keeping my man Nathan in the game and having some sort of deal going for me.. I'll suck it up and be a team player. My other reservation is what this plan entails.

To have our plan work it means that Danielle and I need to win the POV and we have to remove Matoria from the block. Now understand how  this is to me when it's coming from Nathan's mouth! I straight away asked him if he was comfortable with doing that because it's risky af. I know he'd have Danni and my votes locked but he said it's worth the risk. He must trust Matoria a lot and I guess that's enough for me since it's his life on the line. I have mad respect for the guy since he'd rather keep all of us safe and risk his own ass to boot Jessica who none of us have use for. I want it to work out for him because if he's willing to do this for me I'd be willing to do it for him in some way. I'd pay back the favor! Danni and I discussed it alone and I told her to go her hardest for POV. I think I did okay enough and she needs to finish us off strong.

Nathan shares the same sentiments I do that Healeb needs to be taken care of. It bugs me that everyone seems to gravitate toward them. I've been turned off by them ever since they both suggested they wanted to keep both Jerry and Donny, lying to Jerry unnecessarily. I thought I was the only one who saw this because here they are still not nominated. I don't know if everyone else in on the plan this week feels the same way but I'm glad that Nathan seems to be on the same page as me. The reason for nominating them would be for what I just mentioned. It's a valid reason and the goal would be for Caleb to leave.

This needs to work out. (sweating)The only thing that worries me is my relationship with Leo. Luckily if Danni and I do win and we remove a nomination.. then it will be Nicole's if I remember correctly. I don't know who she'd put up but I'm willing to bet it would be Monisa because word on the street is that Donsie has worked their way into a big group over Donny staying and Jerry going last round.

[Ryan]

I'm doing damage control! (sweating)I can't have my m8 Leo mad with me. He's one of the people on the "other side" that I have the best connection with and don't want to see suffer from this. Danni and I using the POV really rocked my relationship with Nicole and Leo but I do think it was the better move to make. Their rumored allies of Donsie and Healeb offer me nothing so me sticking with Matoria and Nathan is the better road to take. I immediately went to Leo and Nicole after I made the decision to share why we decided to use POV. I didn't give away everything but told them how it was rumored that Ryelle was likely going to be the replacement how everyone thought it was weird that Donsie wasn't nominated when they aren't hardly around. My goal to do this was that now that they know people are associating them.. then maybe they'll take the plunge and put Donsie up to nix the rumors?

Leo has told me he's going to push Nicole into putting up Donsie for that reason so I hope that he has some pull over her to make that happen. The reason I need Donsie to go up is so that we have a chance at using Monika as the 5th vote for Nathan. Nathan has 4 votes locked but needs 1 more to avoid the tie and Monika is that 5th vote we need. In turn we also might take the chance to boot Donny with those 5 votes so that Nathan would be paired with Jessie over Donny. Nathan and Donny would be a fked up pair lmfao. If Donny is with Leole and Healeb like we think he is then it's funny how each member of that new pair would be playing for a different alliance and we don't want that. Of course this all stems from Donsie going up on the block. If Donsie doesn't go up we could have a problem. I don't know if Donny or Jessie would keep Nathan?

Also let me just take a small moment to curse Danielle! She was smooth to put the heat on me to make this nomination ceremony! I know why she did but that's okay lmfao. I've made sure to stress to everyone today that the move had to be agreed upon and that sometimes working in a pair makes you feel like your hand is "forced" and I couldn't wait until it was over. I didn't outright say my hand was forced but I implied it in a way where it could be taken that way. I really do want this twist to be over soon because this whole being chained to your partner and being associated with things they do or say is starting to take it's toll on me. And not just me! But others too!

[Ryan]

It looks like Nathan's gone and he knows it. I feel for the guy. We had a plan and it almost followed through to perfection. It sucks when things don't go your way but I'm not going to let this get me or my alliance down. If Nathan does go like we think he is then that means I'll be in the minority. I'm not changing my vote from Nathan. I told him that I'm ride or die and I'll have his back until the end. He was telling me how he's giving it to Caleb right now and I was glad to hear it.. somebody needs to. I was talking to Leo at the same time and trying to understand what he was doing it and why he was doing it. He said that he's evicting Nathan because he told more people that he'd save Jessica in the tie breaker and that Danni and I would understand his move more than the others would if he evicted Jessica. Man come on Leo. You're looking like a mega jerk off. All Leo wants to do is float in the middle and try and be everyone's best friend and that doesn't fly when the house is this split.

My problem isn't with Leo but I am frustrated with him. I haven't had any heated arguments with Healeb or anyone and I don't plan to but I am against Healeb more than anybody. If I win HOH they are going to be my nomination. I will RACE Danni to posting my speech just so I can put them up. I've been talking to Tori today and we know we're in a bit of a predicament now. Ryelle or Matoria needs to win HOH because everyone else is on that side. Jessie I think is going to follow Donny and if Luisa stays which I think she is then she'll side with them because they're keeping her. I'm having problems voting people I talk a lot to opposed to people I don't. Mon's been campaigning to me and talking to me the past 2 days and I haven't talked to Luisa since last round. But the way I see it is.. this cast is playing follow the leader with Healeb. I'm not here to play and have Caleb or Heather win.. I'm here to win.

[Ryan]

I thought Caleb was bad before but I'm BLOWN AWAY by today. BLOWN. AWAY. Danni was the face of Ryelle today in the HOH and she cleaned house. She had so many moves left over the other groups and it was a clear cut victory for us. I don't know if I would have been able to do what she did so I'm glad she got it for us. This means that even though we have less numbers we'll be able to lessen the other side of the house a little to try and match them. What followed should have been a celebration but instead it turned into the eye of a hurricane. People who knew they were going up did anything and everything they could to try and deter the attention off of them and onto others. Healeb. Lmfao I can now officially say that I don't like 2 people in this cast. It's them. I've never met 2 people so obsessed and high on themselves. Seeing that this is the Internet.. that's a big thing to say. Caleb is bipolar. One minute he's saying how much he doesn't like you and trying to call you out for things but then he's in a private IM telling you he likes you as a person and he's just trying to help you out. Where do you find people like this!?

Heather.. I don't know what's up with her. I semi liked Heather until today. I was starting to feel for Matt because he was getting double teamed by these 2 morons so I started to take up for the guy and tried to laugh off the situation but then started to get attacked too. For those of you reading I'm apparently a "dick" and I'm very sarcastic. Who knew! Heather to me is just someone being manipulated and used by Caleb. She's taken all his views and adopted them as her own. It's sad because I enjoyed our few conversations we had earlier in the game but now she's become unbearable. Speaking of unbearable.. the attempt to put a target on Matt and get Danni and I to consider nominating Matoria or second think our relationship with them was transparent. I'm only human and couldn't help but laugh at the 5-6 day old screenshots being taken and uploaded to show how Matt was thinking at a different stage of the game. Caleb unloading his library of screenshots shows the type of game he's playing and it's a terrible one tbqh.

The goal this week is to put Leole and Healeb on the block because they're the stronger duos. I can't risk having one safe and winning and saving the other. They both need to fight and if one of them win then so be it. Luckily since we're short in numbers we have 2 other duos we can pick from: Donsie or Luica. Ideally the nominations don't change so we can get out one of our preferred targets. The game is heating up now and if people can't handle the heat then they need to get out of the kitchen. But one thing I won't stand for is being bullied or taunted and Healeb had that down to a T today. I'm not going to let them get to me and nobody else should either. I'm going to take everything they say with a grain of salt, if not completely throw it out as a biased opinion.

[Shir]

You remind me of real Ryza.

[Ryan]

Dec 14, 2014 21:47:22 GMT -5 Shir said:

You remind me of real Ryza.

That's a good thing I hope.

[Ryan]

I had a heart to heart with Leo I guess you could say. He's worried about the vote and I get it. I think his side values Nicole more than him and I told him that and he seemed aware. Nicole backed Healeb up in the house meeting and she's normally on more than he is so I can see why they'd want to go the distance with her over Leo. Leo approached me with a "are you guys really not going to put up Donsie for being inactive?" Lmfao dude did you guys really not do it last week? This time the game's different. Sides are drawn. Putting up the 2 strongest pairs so they didn't have a chance to save each other was fair game. Leo went on and on how evicting Nathan was good for him last week so here I am saying not changing nominations is good for my game this week. I like the guy but I'm growing tired of how he's going about things. I was harsh I guess but I told him that his game of playing between both sides and saying he likes our side more but his actions saying other wise doesn't benefit anyone. If he goes then he goes. I'm not going to fight for him to stay because he caused this on himself.

Heather came to me late last night wanting to talk. I took the opportunity to apologize to her. A lot of my comments in the house meeting came from the 2v1 on Matt that I didn't think was cool. Not only that but that they were unleashing all of the damage on Matt when he wasn't present and couldn't defend himself. Also that they brought this news to the house's attention no less than an hour after we won HOH. What am I supposed to do lol play dumb and act like I'm interested in what they had to say like Danni? PROBABLY! But that's not me. I made myself a bit of a target with that but it's ok. I'm not going to worry about it because I feel alright in my group right now and I think we have some good competitors. I have to hold out hope that Matoria can step up in HOH next round so that we can be safe and we can get more people not aligned with us out of the house. That's all I can do right now aside from trying to talk to people and have them forget about that meeting.

Is anyone else getting a kick out of Caleb trying to act like the season's hero. ALL HAIL CAPTAIN HERO! You have to love the dude. He's a martyr for laying down his game for the love of his life Heather. I've never seen someone play so selflessly in a game before. ... (jerkoff)No way. He knows he's going so he's trying to go out  in a way that makes it look like an honorable death. I don't buy it. Matt doesn't buy it. I hope nobody buys it. ACTUALLY WAIT. Breaking news! According to Danni, Caleb starting campaigning last night to people. That makes sense because that's why Heather started asking 25 questions about where I thought the votes were going to land. LOL AND I'M THE DICK? That's like giving someone a christmas gift and then taking it back after they unwrap it. I'm talking to Danni about the stuff Heather said last night. Heather hinted at wanting to work with me and leaving the door open for future possibilities. I didn't agree but implied I could be later on. I know how these people are sharing screenshots so I'm not going to commit to that now. Danni and I agreed it could be a net if she wins HOH. But if I won HOH I'd probably find a way to still get Heather out.. I don't know what to do about her yet.

[Ryan]

That's not the outcome I was hoping for but that's the name of the game! Victoria came close and I wish she would have gotten it. She's upset about losing and sent me some offlines about how bad she felt about missing out by 20 minutes. She has no reason to feel sorry or feel the way she does. She stepped up for Danni and I and that's all I can ask for in an ally. Matt on the other hand I don't know what's up with him lol. He kept hyping up that he was going to go all day and night and didn't even make half of that. I'm trying to talk to him now and letting him know that I expect it to be him and me sitting on the block and he keeps repeating over and over that he's the one going home and that he's the target this week. Dude what lmfao? If Heather was smart about this then I think she'd want to come after me. She has no reason to go after Matt tbqh. But no matter what I say to Matt he keeps going on that he's the the target.

Matt: Oh, I know I'm going up and the main target. It's no worries.
...
Matt: Probably me, which like I said, is cool.
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Matt: There's no way she doesn't want me gone this week.

I think Matt's safe if in post nominations against me but that may just be me lol. I doubt me and Heather mending fences has cast her eyes off me. We seem okay but her play is to get me out if she's knows what's good for her. I'm going to make an attempt to not get nominated by letting her know that keeping me in the game keeps the target off of her and more on me. If she doesn't nominate me then I will do the same for her next week and I mean that. I wouldn't backstab her on that deal if she showed me a courtesy this round. The bad thing about this is she could not put me up and then backdoor me.. giving me no chance to save myself. Going up might be the best thing for me because it guarantees that I can play in the POV competition. I don't know what to do (sweating)but I'm going to see what's up with Heather and what she's thinking.

[Ryan]

My days are getting numbered with these POV wins lol. I need to sleep with an eye open at all times! Winning POV was great because it means I can save myself but it's also bittersweet. I knew that if I got off the block that an ally of mine would be going home. That's what happens when sides are drawn. What I find odd is that when I took myself down I expected Danni to go up in my place. Instead Victoria went up. Interesting. Danni and I were partners and she helped me win those challenges the first part of the game. She's just as much a physical threat as me I would think. Instead Heather nominates Victoria who I thought she'd have a mutual respect for since they went 12 hours for HOH. I might be over thinking it but it worries me that Danni is safe. If Danni cut a deal with Heather.. she didn't tell me about it and that's not good at all. I've been open with Danni about the stuff people have said and trying to cut deals with others to stay safe but if she did it with Heather then she's not reciprocating the open lines I've been trying to hold up for her and I.

My suspicions with Danni aside.. I now have to decide who to vote between Victoria and Matt. I like both of them a lot and they both help my game in different ways. Matt is more disliked by the house and he could always be a target but I don't think he'd ever be a target over me. Victoria is the one I get along with more out of Matoria. Victoria and I have great chats. I don't feel like she's always trying to have a pity party for herself like Matt has been. I get we're not in a good spot but Matt's all about the negativity saying he's going home and downplaying everyone else's worries and hyping up his own. I think I want Victoria to stay and I'll be voting that way. I'm not going to tell anyone else in the house what I'm thinking of doing because I feel that if I say that I want Matt to go and Victoria to stay than Victoria may go if she already isn't. I feel kind of alone with the exception of 2 or 3 people and I think keeping my cards close to my chest about who I want to stay and go is better for me.

I need to win HOH next round. If I win then I will try to strike a deal with Heather. If I keep Heather safe then she needs to keep me safe when she's HOH. We had a talk about how backdooring is for cowards before. If I do win I'll honor a week of HOH without her going up but she needs to pay it back in return. I nominated her already and she's nominated me.. and as she said that's tit for tat so we're equal now. But that doesn't mean I won't go for her allies. My nominations would be a combination of Nicole/Jessica/Luisa with original nominations and the replacement. I don't mind who goes because all of them have made it clear they are here to play along side Heather.

[Ryan]

I'm going to try and make time for this soon but I don't know if I am going to be able to. I'm home now with family and if I can find a time to be uninterrupted I'll be on to message one of you guys! My goal would be to win the competition and bring back Nathan. Nathan coming back is the best scenario for me because I think he would be set against Heather and that side of the house. Matt coming back is the next best option but he's not my top choice. Caleb is the worst case scenario lmfao. Caleb coming back nullifies my reign last time with Danni because he was the one who left under me. I don't want a Healeb reunion! Jerry or Leo coming back is a mixed bag. Jerry and I didn't have a close relationship because we spoke late but we did talk a bit before he got evicted. I hope he knows that Nathan, me and the others on my side were batting for him after he left and he would want to side with me, Victoria and Danni. Leo has been concerned with being friends with everyone in the house and I'd hope if he came back he'd side with the people that voted to keep him lol but you never know with Leo.

[Ryan]

Now it's time to try and get back into the swing of things! I used every bit of that break lmfao and I needed it with how busy I was. Thanks hosts for giving us that! I talked with some people yesterday to see if AIM was populated during the break but everyone said the activity was fairly low and not much went on which I guess is good news. I didn't want to be the only one not coming on during the holiday break. Coming back and being greeted with a HOH win is awesome and I'll take it. I have a fair amount of options to choose from but I am trying to play for long term and what will help me get further into the game. My side is almost extinct lmfao and I can't just play with Danielle and Victoria and expect a cake walk to the end. My physical game has been too strong and I'm too much of a threat. I have to play this right or I'm going home this first second I mess up.

I'm in a pickle because Victoria seems to have vanished. I don't know where she is. I tried as much as I could to console her after she lost to Heather before the break and told her not to worry and that we could find a way to bounce back. I haven't talked to her since and I haven't seen her on the board. If she's not coming back then all I have is Danni and I don't even know if I fully have Danni lol. I still am concerned over Heather not nominating Danni last time even though Danni was a firm player in Ryelle. I am now trying to get myself in with Heather and have tried to convince her that keeping big players like she and I in the game is beneficial to both of us. If I go or she goes, who does she think everyone is going to want gone next? The other person. She has the better end of the deal because more of her allies are still around but I can't help that. I have to play with the hand I have and this is what I got. I'm going to try and make by week deals that can help me progress when I can't win.

A hot commodity that I want is Jerry. Heather is with me to not come after the other and now I want to secure Jerry as an ally. If I can secure Jerry then I think I'll have the stronger players locked in deals. They will be the people I'd expect to win a competition if I'm not able to. Danni shouldn't nominate me now either. If any of them break a deal I'll be sure to scream it out and loud so that everyone knows that their word means nothing. I think Heather is genuine in holding up her end and I hope that Jerry is interested and would be genuine when we talk. Players like Donny don't offer me anything except possible Jury votes at the end so my game with them will be to try and talk to them. I did have an idea of trying to branch off my Jerry deal and include Donny. We're the only 3 guys left in the game. Did anyone else notice that all the dudes are on the Pre-Jury almost?

My nominations are going to be a combination of Luisa/Jessica/Nicole. Luisa is going up without question lol. I have seen everyone else at some point or another when I've been on AIM but I almost never see Luisa and if I do she says nothing. I voted against her and kept Monika too so she'd have a reason to want to come after me. She also came close in this last competition with 19/20 which means she has it in her to be a threat. My other nomination is between Jessica and Nicole. I'm leaning toward Jessica to go up because I believe Heather and Nicole to be close. If I put up Nicole then I'll be angering Heather and I don't want to fracture my deal with her.. not yet at least. Jessica is nice and all but I don't think she has any intentions of working with me. If I do end up doing Luisa and Jessica then my target will be Luisa. I hope everyone is game for that and I don't run into any difficulty with it.