Ryan's Room

[Ryan]

I think Nicole and I have been playing a game of who will break first and message the other person. It's been going on the past 2 days and the competition is stiff! I'll likely break though lmfao since I have to make nominations before I head to work soon. Jerry left me a message about wanting to talk and said he'd be on soon so I'll wait up for him before I make my decision. I want to talk to him and see if he offers up anything before I use some of my power. Him in a vulnerable spot means he'll probably give me more than he would after being safe from nominations. Jessica and I were talking but she disappeared 15 minutes ago and the chat went no where. I was worried she was going to be engaging and I'd second think the possibility of her going up but this just makes me want to put her up more.

[Ryan]

I locked a deal with Nicole that is synonymous with the one with Heather. It has the same guidelines. Heather knows I was going to Nicole with this because I mentioned wondering if Nicole would be on the same page as Heather and me and if she thought stronger players sticking around a few rounds was better for us than having the wildcard/floaters outnumbering whoever is remaining of us later. I think Heather and Nicole are close and Heather confirmed it today when she told me she trusted Nicole 110%. Them wanting to keep me around a little longer than maybe what they planned can only help me for the moment. Nicole liked the idea and she said she would return the favor if she was HOH. I hope she's being genuine because I am! I still need to talk to Jerry who I haven't seen yet. Jessica keeps asking what I'm doing and I've told her that Luisa is going to be my target but I haven't decided who to sit beside her as a pawn. It's probably going to be her lmfao but I haven't said that yet.

[Ryan]

Luisa: so like... why the fuck am i your target lmao?
Ryan: you're always close to winning (like today in pov) and i know i'd be in immediate danger
Ryan: i don't feel like i can talk to you as much as some of the other people who i'd be in danger with
Ryan: so i at least have that availability to try and save myself if they were to win
Luisa: that's the reason you're targeting me?
Luisa: cause I came second in a challenge? LMFAO genius
Ryan: how is that not a valid reason? you're not an ally of mine? we've spoken no game for weeks
Luisa: well yeah, but typically when you go for non-allies, you're supposed to go for actual threats lulz
Ryan: why would i do that when i can't compete for hoh next week? tori is probably going to be removed, thats another ally down. its called trying to think ahead
Luisa: think ahead to eliminate someone weak?
Ryan: you're not weak, you're just downplaying your ability right now
Luisa: lol k you have fun getting like 7th when you wasted an hoh on me
Ryan: lmfao alright because poor little luisa isn't a threat at all
Luisa: i'm a threat to shove a boot up your ass for being a shithead rn
Ryan: i thought you were a queen?
Ryan: what happened to that? now you're weak and a waste of a week?
Luisa: i still am a queen because i'm a bitch who does rude things
Ryan: oh believe me, I know
Ryan: you keep being you, we'll see if it helps
Luisa: uhm I fucking approached you to know why I was nominated
Luisa: and you got all attitude-y with ME
Ryan: in the worst way possible? LMFAO
Luisa: was there a better way?
Ryan: are you not self aware in how you come across?
Ryan: you come across like a snotty brat and i'm not the only one who's said so in the past day
Luisa: receipts
Ryan: you wish bae
Luisa: so it's false gotcha
Ryan: good luck campaigning. maybe it'll work out for you. if so then good job and happy holidays!
Luisa: i'm the fucking first juror maybe you should act like it
Ryan: i should act like what?
Luisa: like i'm the first juror
Ryan: out of how many again?
Ryan: look, you and i were never allies, we were never on the same side, we've hardly spoken. there wasn't even an ounce of a shot that we'd ever be on the same page so i'm not going to lose any sleep over this honestly and neither should you
Ryan: if you would've won, i would've been up and you know it. so let's the cut the shit and realize we're on opposite ends. good luck with your campaign, idk what else you want me to say to you
Luisa: there's a way to be on opposite ends and treat others with respect. you have none and therefore you suck moose cock
Ryan: you think you treated me with any respect the way you initiated the conversation? let alone your passive aggressive offline yesterday?
Ryan: zero respect tbqh
Ryan: you get what you give

[Ryan]

I got this from Nicole when I got on today..

Hey Ryan! I know that we had an agreement but I think that it is best for me if I nominated you - I hate to break the deal after you kept me safe last week but I just think this is best for my game right now. Atleast i'm giving you a chance to win the veto! Just wanted to give you a heads up before I posted noms.

I got burned ladies and gentlemen! Man. I thought what I planned out would have worked out. Nicole kept telling me last week that she'd pay me back for keeping her safe. We even had a talk about how annoying it was when on the show, people would go back on their words and not follow through with things lmfao. She told me that it was one of the most frustrating things ever. I guess since it's a new year, her feelings have changed? lol right. The positive is that at least I'm going up and have a chance for POV. This is an important one too. I don't think I have anyone except Danielle and maybe a little bit Jerry. Nicole doing this leads me to believe Heather is in on it which means neither of them were going to honor the deal I made last week if they won. I made that deal because I knew one of them would probably win lol and wanted to cover my base with them. It's becoming more evident that I need to just beast these POV comps..

Jerry knows that one of Heather and Nicole need to go because we had a chat yesterday about it. I was pulling for Jerry after that because I think he would have been good with booting one of those 2. This reminds me of Matt's eviction too.. if I end up saving myself then Danielle or Jerry are going to leave (1 of them will be sitting on the block with me initially I'm sure). None of which benefits me lmfao which is obviously Nicole's goal. I want to win this POV and then win HOH and nominate those 2 girls. I should have done it last week but I over thought it and put my trust in people that weren't interested in switching things up. I am kicking myself for not doing it last week now but I took a risk and it backfired on me. I tried! I guess the only redeeming thing is that since everyone seems after me that I didn't and can't go wrong nominating or targeting people lol. Luisa wasn't weak at competitions and we never spoke game so her going still benefited me.

Sad times in the RNF house folks.

[Ryan]

Numbers are my best friend.. This competition could not have come at a better time! I'm majoring in Applied Math and if I can't win this I'm going to feel even more burned this week lmfao. It came easy except the last lock which took up all my time. I hope nobody else wins because I can't see anyone saving Danni or I. Danni and I talked about the game plan yesterday and she told me that she hopes I win so that I take myself off but I still told her to try her best and not throw. There is a higher chance of her surviving on the block though because if I stay on the block I'm gone. We tried to go over the voting numbers but Nicole will get whatever she wants because she has Heather and Jessica to tie the vote up and then she can send whoever she wants home. I hope they keep Danni if I win because if Danni goes then I feel my only option is Jerry to work with because everyone else seems against me.

This challenge seems like my last chance and if I can't win it then it's been a fun game (albeit harder than I thought it would be). It's difficult juggling the different aspects of the game. I think my strongest asset has been my "physical" ability but if I can't win it here when I need it most I'll probably feel something similar to what Victoria felt when she couldn't get the win. If I can't win I guess the next best option is Jerry and I'll see if he'll want to save me. I can tell him that I have a good chance at winning HOH if I stay by my track record in comps and if I win then he's safe. Unlike certain people in the game lol I've kept and planned to keep my word. I don't know though. I just want to win the POV man. I won't feel safe or comfortable otherwise.

[Ryan]

Jerry almost had me! (sweating)I thought my biggest physical competition was Heather and Nicole but I think Jerry's breaking out and in a big way lol. He's not a target of mine yet but he's working his way there. The only reason I'm not going for him is because he's making himself available to me. Whether or not he honestly wants to work together with me.. it's all I got right now. The problem now is that Donny has gone up on the block. My immediate assumption was that the target was Danielle because Donny is a good pawn here. I got to talking to Jerry this morning and apparently it's swayed and Donny seems to be the target. Jerry started telling me that apparently Danni was saying she'd put me up next week if she won. If I hadn't heard from Danielle prior to this I would have been confused as hell lmfao. Danielle sent me a message telling me she was going to promise whatever she had to and would say she'd target me in order to stay this week.

Danni could be playing both sides like I've had my suspicions over but again she's another ally or someone that at least acts like they want to work with me lol. I want to keep that around. But now that Jerry knows the girls may want Donny out he's trying to keep Donny or at least find a way to it seems. Donny never flipping talks to me though lol. When he does he always tells me the same thing and that's that we could work together in the "future". That time frame is running a little low now buddy! Now that his back against the wall, Jerry is telling me that Donny really wants the guys alliance to work out now. Lmfao man. If Donny was good at competitions, a part of me would be down to keep him but he's fodder lol. Danni has it in her to win and Donny is someone that anyone could drag to the end and win over. That's a threat in it's own right!

My objective right now is to not commit to anything. I'm not going to say who I'm keeping or who I'm wanting to keep. I think Heather and Nicole will want to do the opposite. I don't know who I can or can't tell things to. How did Jerry know that Danni was originally the target and now Donny was? I don't need my intentions getting in the wrong hands. Danni knows I'm keeping her this week. She feels confident that she's staying and I hope she does. If she doesn't then lol.. ANOTHER ally of mine goes down and I'm just about a one man army. I need HOH next week or I can't get anything done that I want. My goal for next week is that Heather or Nicole leave and I think I can make that happen because it's a house wide fact that those 2 are tight as ever.

[Ryan]

The SICKENING SILENCE of me winning was great lol. (rolling)Who's not loved in the house? This guy! But it's cool. I have known that I've been on the bottom for a while now and I have to do what I can in these competitions to stick around. I signed on today to be greeted by Jess. I guess I shouldn't say 'greeted' since it was more of a 'questioning'. Jess usually starts out a conversation by being unresponsive and then after moments of silence she jumps into game talk with a quick shoot of questions. I don't ever give her a lot but I did tell her today that I was going to nominate Nicole and Heather. I think everyone should know that anyway. When she asked me who the target was I didn't tell her because I didn't need her to run off and tell anyone anything. I feel like that's what Donny and Jessica do in the game. They just run around and tell information to the bigger players. Donny tells Jerry stuff, Jess tells the girls stuff. And uh.. nobody tells me anything.. unless I win.

I've embraced my role as the social outcast lol. I think it makes winning competitions more enjoyable because it's what people want the least. While an outcast I still do try and sign on to talk to people if they care to speak with me. I'm not in any groups or alliances and god knows I've tried to make deals but the people have either been evicted already or have backstabbed me. I knew Danni was going close to deadline because she told me that they all let her know they were evicting her.. but I didn't change my vote. Ryelle was a thing since the start and I wasn't going to let my girl go out unanimous. But if what Heather told me today was true about Danni playing me and being between Heather and I then mad props to Danielle there lol. I always had an idea that Danielle was with Heather but now that it's confirmed I don't feel THAT bad that Danni is gone.. but she was still someone that I think had my back a little longer.. and I think that's more than some of these people.

Donny is anti-girls and Jerry is too. If Nicole and Heather stay up on the block then I'll let them decide who they want to see go. Either one is good with me. They're both equally good at competitions and they're both threats toward the end. The goal is to split them up because it's too late in the game to have a strong pair like them around. If one of them comes down then the one still up will hopefully go. I've talked that over with Jerry and he seemed good with making that happen. Donny will follow suit because he feels burned after being nominated last week. My replacement will be Jessica so that I have the guys voting one of Heather or Nicole out. One of those girls needs to go this week!

[Ryan]

Nicole won POV but I'm not mad about it. Heather is still up and she should still be going.. I hope. (sweating)The goal of this week has always been to split those girls up and send one to jury. Donny is against the girls for being cool with him going up last week and Jerry knows their tight and need to be split up. After Nicole won I got a message from Jerry and he's good to get rid of Heather. I told Jerry that if Heather stays this week then it's going to be him or I leaving next week if he doesn't win HOH. Nicole and Heather are both eligible to play and if one of Jerry or me take ourselves down then the other will go no matter what because they'll have the votes to do what they want. I've been good in comps so that should help sway him to boot Heather if he wasn't confident. If Heather gets evicted then that increases Jerry's chances of winning HOH too. I didn't say this next part but I do think Jerry would put me up lol. He'd nominate me and Nicole next week if Heather left this week which makes sense for his game since we're his biggest threats. If I survive next week and make F4 then I'll be nominating Jerry myself but for now we have to use each other to get one of these girls out before they get one of us first.

I'm going to be putting up Jessica so that Donny and Jerry are the majority 2 versus the 1 vote Nicole will cast to keep Heather in the game. I hope Jess doesn't take it personally but she's with the girls and she'd be a vote to keep Heather and I can't have that for my game. Man I really need this to work out. Next week is going to be my week to win POV if I want any shot of making it to the end. I have been playing this entire game marked with a target that won't ever come off. I've been starting to think of a F2 partner or who I'd want to sit in the end with me and I think the person that has done the least in the game is Donny. He'd be the ideal person to sit beside. My physical game has been strongest and if I want a shot to get some votes then I think he's my best bet. Jessica's been of value to the girls but Donny doesn't seem valuable to any side as he was nominated by the girls and I don't think he's ever been in an alliance except him recently trying to jump into the guy's alliance I tried to put out into the air rounds ago. I can't see him having a strong case. I'll think more about that if I can get out of the F5 alive.

[Ryan]

I really am alone LOL! If it wasn't confirmed before it is now!  Ah well! I had the duo of blondes lie to me and then I had the duo of elderly folk lie to me! It's clear to me that I'm the target for all of them. I can't see any other reason for the guys to keep Heather in unless it were to help come after me lol. I feel bad for Jess because I had been reassuring her that I thought the votes were good because Donny and Jerry were telling me they were still on board to vote out Heather. I got a word with Jess before she left and she's upset and she has a right to be but I still think that no matter what she says she would have kept Heather too and it would be Donny walking out instead.

HOH is going to suck because all I'm going to be doing is watching a competition to see who will nominate me. I need that POV or I'm out of here folks! If one of the girls do win then one of the guys will be getting put up with me and if I win the POV since as Jerry said I "have a good track record with them" then one of Jerry or Donny will be walking out to the jury house. It would be so nice to see this eviction bite one of them in the tuchus.

[Ryan]

Nicole winning was no surprise to me. She's the comp savvy one between her and Heather! Her nominating Jerry and I was predictable lol. I told Jerry last round before eviction that her and Heather would do this and that one of him or me would leave this week. I thought he understood what I was saying last round when I said that but I guess not. It was going to be him against me for the POV and whoever didn't win was going to leave because the blonde who didn't win would be able to tie it to give their BFF what they want (the stronger player going)! I won POV and now Jerry is in trouble.. what can you do. I tried to tell him lol but him and Donny didn't care to listen. Heather tried to ask me what I was going to do with the vote but I didn't tell her. Lmfao people like to vote opposite of what I want so I'm done telling people what I'm really thinking. I've learned my lesson by being burned twice. The smart decision is to vote out Jerry because he's a threat in competitions. It will be the final 4 and my goal has been to eliminate my strongest competition.. not keep it.

Donny is who I want at the end with me and if I win HOH next round I can maybe make it happen. I win and nominate the girls and that leaves Donny as the sole voter.. IF one of them doesn't win POV lol. POV is the most important thing. I am going to try hard for HOH but if I don't win it then I still have POV. The downer is Donny can't finish any competition lmfao so if I don't win then Heather will. Heather is who I want to vote out! If Heather makes final 3 she is going to kill the first part with her endurance skills. I wish Jerry had been on my side because if I kept him this week there might of been a chance for him to win HOH or even POV and that would increase the odds of getting out one of the girls. I can't trust Jerry though.. he's shown me that. He hasn't even come to me and explained why he did it and I guess he doesn't need to because the only reason I can think of is because they all wanted strong numbers to get rid of me.

I'm going to evict Jerry and I hope Heather is too. I want letting Jess go to be a proven bad move on his part lol and I think that shines best if he gets evicted.

[Ryan]

Donny sucks man. I was invisible last night while I was at work and he was on invisible when he messaged me. All he sent me was "nominate me" and when I asked why he never answered. To want to be nominated is a big smack to the face to the all the people that would still want to be here lol. You can tell the guy doesn't want to play anymore because he hasn't been doing comps. As much as I'd like to grant him that wish and help get him out.. it's not a smart move for me lmfao!  He needs to be in the finals with me and that's another thing I can use against him to get some votes. I need to get out one of Heather or Nicole this week. Nobody is going to take me to the end but taking out a challenge threat can only help me in the F3.