Post by Matt Hoffman on Dec 8, 2014 10:43:34 GMT -5
I'm the leader of my alliance and I don't like that. I mean. I created it, I'm not trying to deny that, being known as the leader is scary. That's why I tried to pawn it off on Victoria, but she's not on enough. So eventually I have to be the master manipulator of the group. It's terrifying because I have to lead this pack while also keep in the back of my mind that anyone lower in the alliance wants to take out the leader.
That's enough to bring the paranoia out with me, you know? Of who I wanted to vote to evict this week. Neither option is the actual target. Now, that's in part because I didn't press it hard because I didn't want to seem controlling so early, if that makes sense. Still though, my choices not being the target is enough to drive someone crazy. Should I look for refuge with someone else in case I'm actually on the bottom of the totem pole? Or convince to just calm down and focus on the next HOH.
Yeah, like I said before. It doesn't matter. As long as I'm not evicted. I don't care who goes home. I'll spend next week talking a bit more game with people, and lacing normal conversations in between.
Week one and I'm already paranoid. I can only assume everyone else is the same way.
I talked to Jerry a lot more , so I'll give him my vote to stay to be nice and respectful, but it sucks he's leaving because I knew he was a vote in my direction. Chelsie and Jessie? I don't give a fuck about either. Neither of them really talked to me. I wanted Jessie gone because at least Chelsia had a brief conversation with me. But since she didn't even compete in the POV. She should go because c'mon. Play the game.
Also. Of my Heather/Caleb/Me/Victoria alliance (we're thinking of being called Bae. You know? Best Alliance Ever. I thought it was humorous), can I just say I hope we get to the end, because that secures my victory. But if they go home. I won't cry over it.
That's enough to bring the paranoia out with me, you know? Of who I wanted to vote to evict this week. Neither option is the actual target. Now, that's in part because I didn't press it hard because I didn't want to seem controlling so early, if that makes sense. Still though, my choices not being the target is enough to drive someone crazy. Should I look for refuge with someone else in case I'm actually on the bottom of the totem pole? Or convince to just calm down and focus on the next HOH.
Yeah, like I said before. It doesn't matter. As long as I'm not evicted. I don't care who goes home. I'll spend next week talking a bit more game with people, and lacing normal conversations in between.
Week one and I'm already paranoid. I can only assume everyone else is the same way.
I talked to Jerry a lot more , so I'll give him my vote to stay to be nice and respectful, but it sucks he's leaving because I knew he was a vote in my direction. Chelsie and Jessie? I don't give a fuck about either. Neither of them really talked to me. I wanted Jessie gone because at least Chelsia had a brief conversation with me. But since she didn't even compete in the POV. She should go because c'mon. Play the game.
Also. Of my Heather/Caleb/Me/Victoria alliance (we're thinking of being called Bae. You know? Best Alliance Ever. I thought it was humorous), can I just say I hope we get to the end, because that secures my victory. But if they go home. I won't cry over it.
