Week 5 - Diary Room

[Heather]

12/23/2014

<sub>Host Kat "apologizing" on behalf of all of the hosts for the #Comeback Twist.


My response.</sub>

UGH. This #Comeback thing has the potential to be really disastrous.  Someone is definitely returning, and at this point, I don't think that there are any great outcomes, at least as far as my game is concerned.  I love Caleb, and on a personal level, if he comes back, I'll be so happy, but in the one round that he's been out, I've had to move on, and I've made plans for an endgame that he definitely doesn't factor into.  Danielle has become one of my closest allies, and there's no way in hell that she's ever gonna work with him.  If Cabe is the one to reenter, it could send Danielle running back into Ryan's arms for the remainder of the game.

What's the alternative though?  Anyone else, aside from maybe Jerry, is gonna be fully in Ryan's corner once they're revived.  The guy is already a machine, so yeah, lets just recycle one of his "lackeys" back in, to use one of his favorite terms... sounds like a wonderful idea.

I. Want. To. Scream. And. Shout. And. Rip. My. Hair. Out.

[Heather]

12/28/2014

How lucky was that?  Out of every possible scenario that could have played out with the #Comeback, Jerry winning and getting back into the house was probably the single one outcome that wouldn't have completely tanked my game.

It makes me so happy, and not just on a strategic level either.  Jerry got a raw deal and out of everyone that was evicted so far, he hands down deserved a second chance.

It's interesting, the first thing that Jerry told me once he'd returned was that I'm apparently the talk of pre-jury.  Matt and Nathan especially I guess are not too fond of me, which is actually really funny to hear if you wanna know the truth.  I guess that it just goes to show you how ridiculous and bitter some people can be.  Not once did Nathan make any effort to speak with me after the first round, and while communication may be a two way street, ultimately he's the one who needed my vote to stay the round that he left, so yeah... his bad.  

Maybe Nathan should up his social game next time and then maybe, just maybe he wouldn't "suck at these things" like he says that he does.  Oh, and also, Nathan should get his facts straight before he talks smack.  He called us all out for lying to Jerry about his eviction, but out of the nine people who voted for Jerry to go that week, the one person who told him the truth about what was going on was me.  Not Nathan, not Danni, not Ryan or Jess or Victoria or Nicole; ME.  Nice try though, I guess?



As for Matt, I was starting to like him again before he left, but now, I'm glad he's gone.  I calls 'em like I sees 'em and the dude was a conniving little worm.  

Whatever though... at the end of the day, I shouldn't let their opinions rile me up too much.  It's like Jerry said, they're out and we're still in, and in the context of this game that's all that really matters.

I think that I'm gonna have a solid working relationship with Jerry going forward.  We've agreed to have one another's backs and while he could easily be playing me, I also haven't laid out all of my cards with him yet, so regardless of what happens, I should hopefully be okay.

[Heather]

12/29/2014

The deal that I cut with Ryan couldn't have been struck at a better time... I mean wow, I figured that he had a decent shot of winning this HOH but I can't believe my luck at everything coming together so perfectly.

Jess and Luisa are clearly scared out of their minds right now, and I mean, from where I'm standing, they definitely should be.  I feel bad for them, but at the same time, I have to secure my own spot in the game.  Aside from keeping myself off the block, all that really matters to me right now is protecting Nicole; she's the only one who I feel a true sense of loyalty to on my "side." The other gals are great and I enjoy them both as people, but I don't actually trust either one of them; sooner or later they'd have to go anyway, so if Ryan wants to get Luisa out, I'm not gonna throw a fit over it.  If Ryan is being honest, and I don't know why he wouldn't be, then one of Donny, Jess or Luisa is for sure leaving this week.  It's time to sink or swim... or get eaten by a shark.

SPOILER: Click to show

Seriously though lol, inb4 I'm being played and this is what's actually coming :

[Zach]

i loved that song

[Heather]

Dec 29, 2014 1:24:41 GMT -5 Zach said:

i loved that song

IKR?!  It came up on shuffle today and I was like, "LOL gotta put this in the DR somewhere, classic!"  I actually used to think of Britney in BB12 when I used to listen to this song a lot back in the day.  The season was airing then and she was oblivious to The Brigade and I just wanted to yell through my TV "bb there's a shark in the water!"

SPOILER: Click to show

Oh, inb4 you respond with this:

[Heather]

12/31/2014

Ah!!!  It's been a crazy past couple of days in this house and now that I hold the Veto, there's no way that I can be nominated via the backdoor!  Yippee!

Securing a spot in the Top Eight is great, but things are honestly just really tense right now.  It's certainly a little bit awkward... as much as I'd love to use my power to save Luisa, I know that it'd likely just result in Ryan throwing Nicole up on the block as the replacement.  On paper, Luisa may seem like a stronger ally to have around, especially now that endgame is creeping up on us, but Nic is my best friend in this house, and there's no way that I'm gonna risk her going home.

It's does make me sad though because I do really love both Jess and Luisa.  Luisa seems almost resigned to the fact that she's gonna be the first juror.  I don't really get how she can be such a defeatist honestly, especially after the way that she scolded me for moping the round that Caleb and I were nominated, but I guess that's her prerogative.  If Victoria were out of the equation like we expected that she might be, I'd honestly want to try and make a move and go against what Ryan wants, but it doesn't appear that we're gonna be quite so lucky.

[Heather]

1/1/2015



This round basically sucks!  Luisa is pretty much toast at this point and I hate it.  It's nothing against Jess honestly, she's a sweetheart and I love her, but going forward... I just have a hard time seeing how she's really gonna benefit me.  She and Donny are basically floaters at this point and they will get carried along.  Leaving Luisa in would keep a target around for Jerry and Ryan to contend with.

The most frustrating part is that Nicole and I would be down to keep Luisa in a heartbeat but securing a third vote to make that move is seeming next to impossible right now.


_{Seriously MATH, screw you!}  

According to Nic, Donny seemed like a lost cause when she talked to him earlier (which doesn't surprise me at all,) and I just don't see Danielle budging based on the conversations that we've had lately.  I'm not gonna jeopardize myself either, by pushing against a wall that's never gonna give.

The more that I think about it, it's suspect as heck, how adamant Danni is about Luisa leaving... like does she have some sort of deal in place with Jess?  I mean what other explanation is there?  She knows that she can't beat Ryan in front of a jury and she also knows that he's a threat to comp whore his way to the end... so why would she want to get rid of someone who's clearly going to be against him and who could potentially do her dirty work for her?  I dunno, maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm starting to get overly paranoid, but none of it adds up.

I feel like I really need to win Head of Household again.  I have no idea what Jerry would do if he won and I can't exactly rely on Nicole, as fantastic as she's been to have as an ally.  I almost suspect too, that a Danielle win would result in Nicole ultimately being the one sent home... UGH!  I guess that the only person I can truly rely on right now is me.