Week 6 - Diary Room

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1/2/2015

It's crazy to think that there are only seven people left now.  The jump from nine to here doesn't sound like a lot, but it certainly feels like a lot.


_{Luisa and me embracing after her eviction.}

Losing an ally and someone whose company I really enjoyed sucks, but life goes on.  I have to pick myself up and keep going.

Victoria's ejection was anticipated by everyone I think.  She mentally checked herself out a while ago and honestly I just have to say good riddance.  I don't know if I broke her or whatever when I kicked her ass in that endurance competition, but cry me a freaking river!  Just because you might be down in this game, doesn't necessarily mean that you're out; this is Big Brother for Christ's sake! Don't get on the roller coaster if you can't handle the wild ride.


_{Thanks for ruining this QUEEN for me Victoria.}

[Heather]

1/2/2015

_{This is my BFF in the house and not to brag, but she's a comp winning goddess who can slaughter geriatric men in memory challenges.  Yeah, what can your BFF do?}

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH NICOLE FRANZEL WHO STRENGTHENS ME!

[Heather]

1/3/2015

Now that things are winding down, Nicole and I need to make smart moves, not safe ones.  Ryan might have kept us off the block last week, but returning the favor at this point would be the equivalent of a Big Brother kamikaze mission.  It sucks because I do really like Ryan but he's like a terminator in comps and if we don't take him out while we have the chance, he could easily win his way to the end.

Originally Nicole and I thought that Jerry would be the best person to put up as a pawn to ensure that Ry leaves.  Ryan seems to really like Jerry and if there's an alliance there, the last thing that we want is Jerry winning the Veto and pulling Ry off.  The same thing could easily happen if Danielle won I guess, but the difference is that Nic and I have been cultivating a relationship with Danni for weeks now; throwing her up on the block at this point could easily negate all of our (especially my) hard work.

Jerry approached us though about a potential Final Four deal between himself, the two of us and Jess.  He also promised Nicole that he wouldn't use the Power of Veto on Ryan if he won it... at this point, that's huge and something to really consider.

Danielle has been acting strange lately too.  I'm beginning to think that maybe she doesn't fully trust us anymore, which is fair, because she probably shouldn't (my loyalty at least has always been primarily to Nicole,) but still, it presents a problem.

So who should take a seat next to Ryan in the nom chairs?  It's a lot to think about right now... UGH, I just don't want us to make the wrong call here.


_{Contemplating the big questions...}

[Heather]

1/3/2014

Baylor sums Nic's position so well.  She went back on her word yes, but she really is caught in a sticky situation.  LOL...

[Heather]

1/4/2015

I feel like I alternate between having the best luck and the worst in this house!  I'm the only person not playing in the Veto this week and watching everything play out in front of me sucks!  I wanna help secure Ryan's eviction but instead, all I can do is sit by helplessly from the sidelines.

If Ryan takes himself off the block I'm gonna be in a really tough spot.  It comes down to whether we want to take out the devil we know in Danielle or the wildcard in Jerry.  I felt like I was getting really close with Danni for a while, but lately she's been majorly sketching me out.  With Jerry, he's just a huge question mark to me and I honestly have no idea where he stands.  Can someone seriously just beat Ryan?  The third option would be getting rid of floater extraordinaire Donny, but who wants to waste a week on him?

[Heather]

1/4/2015

So the T-2000, I mean Ryan, won the Veto... AGAIN.  It was what you'd call a real upset... said none of the houseguests ever.  At this point I think that things are about to get a little bit tense.  I'm pretty sure that Nic is putting up Donny as a pawn in Ryan's place tomorrow, and Danni will be the one going home.  The backlash definitely isn't gonna be pretty.  

I'm not a heartless person, and I actually do feel really bad for Danielle, but this move has to be made.  If she was genuine about the Final Two that she offered me, then I'm gonna feel awful, but her actions lately just have me feeling really skeptical.  Also, she probably wouldn't put up Ryan if she won next week, and if any of the rest of us want a chance to win this game, then we have to weaken him somehow... it's a really yucky feeling because up until very recently I legitimately wanted Danni to go to the Final Three with Nicole and me.  Blah, I truly have appreciated her as a person and I hope that we can continue to cultivate a friendship after all of this is said and done, but I know that she's gonna be really angry and feel really betrayed... it sucks.  I don't ever want to hurt anyone.  I'm anxiously bracing myself for what's to come.

[Heather]

1/5/2015

So Ryan took himself off the block, Donny went up as the replacement nominee and everything was in motion for Danni to leave... but you know, the more I've thought about it, is it really in my best interest for that to happen? Donny neither helps nor hinders my game at this point and if I evict Danni I'm letting someone who personally offered me a Final Two walk out the front door.

If Danielle is smart, which I already know that she is, then she knows that she can't beat Ryan in the finals and in talking to her tonight, I'm pretty sure that she also understands that he absolutely has go at the first available opportunity. I know that she's going to say anything right now to save herself, but at the same time, I'm willing to take the risk that she's lying through her teeth to me, because the payoff, if she's telling me the truth is tenfold anything that Donny sticking around could ever do for my game.

The hardest part was convincing Nicole but in the end she came around to my point of view on everything. I made sure that Danni and Nic talked to one another and hashed things out too and now hopefully, we're all back on the same page... God willing, our Final Three is back on. 

There are still some loose ends to everything of course... I definitely have got to bring Jerry and Jess around to the idea of axing Donny, because as fun as a blindside is, I can't just leave the two of them in the dark. I need all the artillery I can get to take down Ryan.

The bottom line is that I'd rather go home next round having actively taken a risk to increase my odds of ultimately winning this game, than have just played the game scared and maybe have made it just a little bit further. And plus, this is more exciting anyway, right? Welcome to the endgame viewers! Don't say I never did anything fun for y'all!

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1/6/2015

What a mess. I feel like I'm up to my eyeballs in a snake pit right now. Jerry clearly wants Danielle gone and Jess clearly wants her to stay and then here I am stuck in the middle, at a crossroads as to what I want to do. With Danni I do think that she has my back over certain people (Jerry and Nic) but at this point her ideal Final Two has got to be with Jessica; it's her best shot at a guaranteed win.  Heck though, if she pulls off staying right now, she'll have a great case against Ryan even if it's the two of them sitting in the finals.  It just makes me worried though, how Jerry confided in Nicole that he suspects Danni and I might be close.  If Jerry thinks he has more pull with Jess than he does with me, that's a major problem.  I don't want to be a third wheel and I definitely don't want to be up a creek if I'm on the block after the Veto Ceremony next week.  Ultimately this is one of the biggest decisions that I've had to make so far and I'm completely back and forth on which way I want to go.