Week 9 - Diary Room

[Heather]

(I wrote this earlier but am just now posting it.)

1/15/2015


_{Tiny table!}

The Big Brother super fan in me is giddy right now because it's the Final freaking Four.  Not only is this point in the season a huge milestone, it also marks the beginning of the endgame; there's officially nowhere left to hide.  

Hopefully I can win this next Head of Household.  I want to ensure my spot in the Top Three regardless of whether Ryan wins Veto or not.  I'll still fight like hell regardless though, because I don't want Nicole going anywhere either.

[Heather]

1/15/2015



I'm so mad at myself.  I knew the margin that Matt was evicted by and I blew it.  I don't know what I was thinking.  It's so frustrating because I was so close.  I so badly wanted to secure my spot in the Final Three right then and there and I didn't.  I knew those vote counts like the back of my hand too, ugh.  I've gone over them dozens of times... I just feel like such a failure right now. This mistake could haunt me forever if I end up leaving this week.  There's always Veto, and it'll be Nicole and me versus Ryan which gives us an okay shot, but I just feel so incredibly distressed over everything right now.  DAMN.

[Heather]

1/15/2015

So this probably sounds really lame but I'm spending my evening studying my butt off for potential Veto Competitions.  I've memorized everyone's facial features in case it's Let's Mate, I've prepared for the sort of questions that might get asked if it's Magic Fingers and hell, I'm even playing Frogger right now on the off chance that it might be flipping Daisy Crosses the Road!

[Heather]

1/16/2015



I love Nicole to death, but I didn't come here to fall on my sword for anybody.  I'll fight for Veto as hard as I can but I need a backup plan if things fall through.  If Ryan wins then Donny is gonna be the one deciding who goes to the Final Three and I can't just sit back and hope that it's me.

Realistically, Donny has no shot of winning this game, but if I'm fighting for his vote this round then I'm gonna need him to believe otherwise.  It's no secret that some of the jurors aren't very happy with me, so if I can convince Donny that his only chance in the Final Two is against me, then that's my best shot.

Obviously I hope to God that it doesn't come to that, but I'd be a fool if I wasn't planning ahead for the worst case scenario right now.

[Heather]

1/17/2015



UGH.  That Veto was so fun but so hard!  I had a really rocky start and even though I finished strong, it probably wasn't enough to beat RoboRyan.  I know that I sound like a total pessimist right now too... but it's frustrating.  I feel like the more I want to win a competition these days, the harder it is that I choke.  It's not over yet but wow.


_{Story of my life lately.}

[Heather]

1/17/2015



Does this ever play in anyone's head when they log onto the board?  I'M JW.  

Coupled with this of course:



Or how about this next one when the evicted housemate is announced?



Or what about the following little ditty when we're all competing for Head of Household?





No?  Hmm... I'm a total weirdo then I guess!

[Jade]

LOL, no.

[Heather]

1/18/2015



OMG!  Best outcome ever!  Unless Nicole is planning on sticking a huge knife in my back, I'm going to the Top Three!

Poor Donny though seriously... how freaking rough is that?  Damn that's gotta suck.  Nic and I definitely caught a lucky break there with that technicality.  I think I'd probably have been fine if Donny won but you never really know and obviously I'm so happy that it was Nicole who won instead.  I love her so freaking much!  We're so close to being the Final Two!  The only thing standing in our way is a behemoth named Ryan... easy peasy right?