"Wow! Leo must have had such a change of heart, he went from ranking Caleb Heather Nicole and Donny as "Meh" to working as a final 6 w them. What insight have we missed???"
You've missed a grand total of zero insight. Nothing has changed. Which puts me in a VERY tricky situation. My ideal first four targets are now my final 5. This twist kindof screwed me over, and I'm not entirely sure where to go from here. Do I tell my real allies: Ryan and Luisa (though we've never spoken about being allies, there's definitely a bond there) about it? Probably not, not until I establish legitimate trust with them. I know I don't want to ride it out to the end with this group and that I'm definitely on the outs.
I would honestly rather have kept Jerry, but it wasn't a big enough deal to make waves over. I need to make sure I don't win the next HoH. If I can really get Heather/Caleb and Myself/Nicole nominated, I really think I can throw the alliance under the bus and get Nicole evicted. Unfortunately that makes my new partner a pissed off Heather/Caleb. Maybe but Donny/Jessy up and work with Jessie? Idk I've never spoken to the guy (STILL).
I'm in a lil' pickle right now, I need to see who the next HoH is and plan accordingly. I need to make sure that if this alliance gets blown up, I'm not suffering backlash from it from potential allies.
Well before you all jump to the conclusion that something finally went my way, THINK AGAIN. I tried to throw that challenge, I basically begged Nicole to do it but she seemed adamant on giving it her all. I kinda tried to go slow but it didn't work out for me I guess. Now I'm stuck as HoH. Great.
Silver lining: Nicole has grown on me . We're seeing reasonably eye-to-eye and we're meshing a bit. Caleb and Heather are nice people too. They're maybe too nice, though. I don't see myself surviving if I actually go the distance with them. Donny is still someone I don't really want to work with. Caleb really imposed him onto our alliance and it's something I don't appreciate (lol? look at me getting righteous). I've reiterated that 100000000 times to Nicole, and she seems to agree.
Anyway, I'm still the HoH and I need to make my nominations. Honestly, my first choice for a nom is Donsie, but I realize I can't do that. Caleb's heart would shatter and I'd piss of too many people. I'm still very close with Ryan and Luisa, and there's no chance I nominate either of them. That leaves Matoria and Nathica. I don't really care either way. I think my safest route is going with Nathica, because I really haven't spoken to Nathan since the first day and Jessica is as enticing as a table. I have no issue nomming her whatsoever. I'd rather she goes, but I'm not gonna push for anything, I'm really trying to play up the easy-going in-over-my-head persona, and I think it's working. Ideally, Nicole nominates Matoria. I think it's likely and people would be ok with it. If the veto is used, there's a strong chance I blow things up and nom Donsie. Hopefully it doesn't come to that, though.
My one and only fear right now is that my alliance is made public and I lose Ryan and Luisa's trust. I need them to know I'm loyal to them, but I still don't trust them enough to tell them. The potential for that backfiring is way too high.
ANYWAY GUYS, I'm sorry for the long and unfunnynovel I just wrote ya'll. I do try and keep things entertaining. You deserve better
Well I'm pissed. Nothing seems to go my way, but I suppose that's my fault more than anything. I want very little to do with my alliance. Everyone is very nice, don't get me wrong. It's just that Caleb really calls the shots and I hate that everyone just sits and obeys him. We've painted a massive target on our backs and divided the house in two, putting ourselves in a minority. I have NO problem telling people where I stand (without ousting the alliance). I really think that in an alliance downfall, I'm in the least amount of trouble.
I'm still gonna try my best to keep forming relationships and ideally Nathan and Luisa stay. I'd tiebreak keep them forsure. I really hope that either the pairs twist ends tomorrow or Healeb or Donsie doesn't win HoH. My position in this game would be bettered by Caleb going home (love ya beastmode <3) and maybe even Nicole too (which would admitedly sadden me). It sucks that I've got the blood on my hands for three nominations when I'm really only responsible for one. At the end of the day, I could be sitting in a worse spot. I'm having fun scrambing and playing it cool for the most part. I definitely don't feel too worried right now
This tie would SUCK for my game. Basically it would make me publicly choose a side and I basically promised both Jess and Nathan my vote. And the worst thing is the tie seems like its def happening. At the end of the day, I have to evict Nathan because it makes more sense to take the target off my back, but I don't really want to do it. If I do end up doing that, I'll have a lot of ground to cover up with Vic, Matt, Ryan and Danielle.Ideally they'll understand where my head is at and realize they have bigger and more threatening fish to fry.
Maybe I'm soft as fuck but that was the hardest moment for me in any ORG. Wow I'm not cut out for that stuff. I LOVED Nathan he was just a great guy. But when Danielle and Ryan tell me they expect me to evict Nathan, it's a no-brainer that he had to go. The backlash is just WAY less intense. On to the next round I guess!
. We're seeing reasonably eye-to-eye and we're meshing a bit. Caleb and Heather are nice people too. They're maybe too nice, though. I don't see myself surviving if I actually go the distance with them. Donny is still someone I don't really want to work with. Caleb really imposed him onto our alliance and it's something I don't appreciate (lol? look at me getting righteous). I've reiterated that 100000000 times to Nicole, and she seems to agree. 
